The Candle of Life

Little Cutie Nephew got sick..sob sob!

2005-03-19T18:17:00.000+08:00

Breakfast:Low fat milk...
Health status: 78%

Saturday,woke up as usual at morning.Last night i got sms from my brother that his son has been a week in SA Medical Centre because of food poison.So sad to hear this news.I managed to see my nephew in the evening.When i arrived the ward,only my sister in law and her daughter take look after the baby, and his was sleeping.He will turn 1 year old this may.I saw both his has was covered by clothes which cover the needle at his hand.Suddenly he wake up and saw me..he a little bit losing weight because having to much nappy.So pity to look at him.Sometimes he smile at me with his 4 new teeths.I will pray for you to get well soon kid.While he in treatment, his sister also not very well,my sister in law said...Maybe the nursery which my brother was sent has served bad food for them..I wish they will get well soon.

When will i see you again...

2005-03-18T18:16:00.000+08:00

Breakfast:not yet...
Health status: 80%

kak ina sms me inviting to have breakfast with HER.I refused to do so because i have some sort of job to be done.Actually it 7.45am at that time,but because i have to go to Putrajaya at 830am and prepare AV setup at BDC because a delegation from Sarawak will visited here .I just take instant coffee at my room.I thought i didn't see HER this morning,but kak ina make me meet her while they having breakfast together.Actually i want to meet kak ina to ask her for BDC AV room.I leave it to my technician to finish the setup as i have to go to Putrajaya. Starting next week, me with 2 colleagues and IT members from every department of MOA will do a functional test on Voice comm. and Network functionality at new building.This is to make sure that all the line can be used when we move there.So people from Putrajaya Holdings weregiving briefing today on how to conduct that test.I return to office at 12pm with empty stomach and hungry.I came to BDC to see what happen after delegation visit, and i saw my friends there having a lunch.And i came with left foot,the food already finish..huhuhuhu so hungry,kak ina said the food already finish, and didn't reserved for me..it's ok and i can hold it .but deep in my stomach,so hungry!!! SHE seem so busy today,because 2 of the staffs were absent.That's what SHE said on YM..I don't want to disturb HER with HER jobs.

Resolving HER computer problem....

2005-03-17T18:11:00.000+08:00

Breakfast:Not Yet.

Today a little bit busy.My bos on leave today and tomorrow.He said that he want to send his daughter to medical college in Penang after return home from Ireland doing twinning program.Yesterday,he has left some message to his SA's (System Analyst),including me to do during his absent.Most of his message was more on the facility setup in the new building in Putrajaya,especially meeting rooms which must be equipped with AV devices.I have to go to Putra Place opposite PWTC to meet IPB department coordinator to update the list of user's computer which will be move to new building in Putrajaya this April.Actually i'm the coordinator of BTM who will collabrate with her regarding to all computer and IT devices.Each of my BTM members were holding one department to managed.The list of user's computers must be submitted to treasury so they can make quotation and give to selected vendor who will be granted to have a tender of moving all the goods in our office.Suddenly, after finish update the list and about to return to office,my friend called me from office."Woi, are you returning to office now?,coz your "miss lawyer" were reporting about her pc problem,probably virus infection and misconfigured cookies in her IE.She ask somebody to fix it,and i give this opportunity to you la,as you were Operation unit man." and i said, "Are you lying to me or not?,ok ok..im about to return, as quickly as i can."So i rushing back to office and grab my thumbdrive.The moment i arrived at HER room ,she was not there.Until SHE come and told me the problem.SHE look so busy that day,and SHE apologize for it.It's ok for me because if SHE there looking to what i do with HER computer then i'm nervous and cannot do my job.huhuhuhu..And now HER computer can operate as usual,after installing spyware and scanning for viruses.I saw HER picture in HER young age at the table, so cute.And SHE also have a collection of CDs,including Take That and some compilation album.Today SHE look beautiful,all day long.

I will be your friend....

2005-03-17T17:20:00.000+08:00

When every moment gets too hard
The end of the road can feel so far
No matter how much time we'll part
I'm always near you
I'll be the shelter in your rain
Help you find your smile again
I'll make you laugh if you have a broken heart
Wherever you are

Cuz I'm never gonna walk away
If the walls come down some day
All along when you feel the pain
I'll be there when you call my name
You can always depend on me
I believe until forever ends
I will be your friend

sing by: coco lee

i paste my theme song here so you all can sing together,hehehe..

Everytime i close my eyes......

2005-03-16T07:38:00.000+08:00

Today as usual arrive at office early, 7.20am although my working hour start at 8.15am.Just want to avoid some traffic along the way and smog produced by cars.The wheather temperature at that time was 25 Celcius,that what i saw at billboard when passing by Federal Highway.It will increase maybe up to 33 to 38 celcius in the afternoon.I diciplined myself to go early because i don't want to come late at office.Same to what i did when working with my previous company.That is the first step to be a good worker,hehehe..Meantime i've set my time to arrive before HER.I learnt that SHE come to office between 7.15 to 7.25am,because HER working hour start at 7.30am.Luckily I saw SHE arrived with HER Kembara while i entering to my department,and i quickly managed myself like i unexpectedly meet HER.Then next step ask HER whether SHE has had a breakfast or not.Fortunately she didn't breakfast yet, and ask me to join HER.I agreed with smile at my face.When the opportunity come,we have to grab it.But one thing about me is that im very shy and nervous if SHE and i only have the breakfast in one table.So I invite kak ina to join me because i know kak ina and HER have something to said.kak ina going to Sarawak recently for meeting,and SHE has requested to kak ina to buy some Batik Sarawak for her.But kak ina didn't have so much time to buy it because her meeting schedule too tight.If kak ina bought it,she plan to assume that I have bought that Batik for HER without HER attention;meaning a secret admirer bought it for HER. When i was in Langkawi last week (and SHE also there for induction course), i have bought a nice and beautiful 'keris' replica,just for my collection.But i think i want to give to her as a gift from 'unknown' guy.SHE really like it because SHE saw my friend bought it when we were there.Actually i've got her phone number from a friend of mine,without HER notice.I feel so guilty for it, but i have no choice.I just wanna be a person that have 2 personalities,friend and secret admirer.I have send SMS last night but SHE didn't reply yet.maybe she think somebody want to trick her or else.But i didn't send a nasty words,just the introduction of myself and some nice words.Same to this night, still silent.But i'll send sms every day to her because i know someday SHE will reply.This evening after office hour,i plan to bought a cheese cake for HER.I bought from 'makcik' who sell 'kerepek' and cake from her van.I wait for HER inside my office which covered by tinted window,so i can see HER when SHE passing by my office.I keep waiting her until my officemate ask me why i seem like having looking for something when he see me looking at the tinted window.And then SHE appear,quickly i grab that cheese cake and meet HER.And SHE thanks to me for that with smile.I think SHE like that cheese cake. First mission accomplished for this day,yes.Don't know what will happen next, i hope this relationship will run smoothly and success.May Allah will bless me.

Things will be run smoothly....

2005-03-15T07:37:00.000+08:00

I missed 2 meeting last week because clash with induction course in Langkawi.First is the meeting about preparation of moving to the new building in Putrajaya in the middle of April,and second is meeting about Parlimen Convention for Cabinet at Parlimen Negara where i've been selected to take in-charge as comittee.Other friends also have been selected and given the schedule when we should be there.My turn on 7th April,thanks to my colleague who came to the meeting last week and has recorded the speech for me.From what my colleague say when he took in charge last year convention, this thing was not easy to handle.We must hear patiently the speech given by Cabinet and jot down the question that raise by audience that related with our ministry and then submit to minister to answer.Actually i didn't clearly understand yet what i'm supposed to do.Maybe i should refer to Admin department for this matter.This is my opportunity to meet Ministers from other Ministry.

Back for good...

2005-03-14T11:26:00.000+08:00

assalamualaikum wbt,Long time no see.Since Disember 2005,and till this date almost 4 month didn't update the blog, as i broke my promise.Shame on me..Banyak perkara berlaku dalam 4 bulan, paling mengejutkan tsunami yg melanda negara dan negara2 lain terutamanya Aceh.Kisah tu pun dah berlalu, meninggalkan ingatan yg pahit untuk mereka yang terlibat.Itu tanda bala dari Allah swt utk kita saling ingat mengingati antara satu same lain.For those yg suke baca blog 'dikakilangit' yg tak seberapa ni terima kasih diucapkan.Well kisah tahun lepas dah berlalu, ada yg tercapai dan ada yg tak tercapai especially personal matters. biarlahkan dia berlalu pergi,seperti dalam lagu Sudirman "Salam Terakhir"..Lets open the new book this year.Tapi buku ni dah suku chapter dah, sebab dah bulan 3,tapi takpe...Tahun ni nak setkan apa yg perlu dicapai,yang masih tak tercapai2 lagi nih..haduh kok pening seh!So skarang ni dah masuk 3 bulan lebih bekerja di tempat baru,Kementerian Pertanian dan Industri Asas Tani..post pun masih lagi dalam bidang IT,Pegawai Sistem Maklumat. bertuah sungguh dapat kat sini, walaupun masa lapor diri dulu rasa mcm tak brape sedap je dapat kat tmpt ni..Tapi persepsi ku salah, tempat ni lebih tenang dan mengembirakan.Memang tak putus2 nama Kementerian ni masuk TV and paper sebab PM nak jadikan pertanian sebagai agenda utama negara.Memang bertuah dan alhamdulillah,syukur kepada Allah swt yg memberi rezeki kepadaku di sini. Tapi yang penting mcmana nak menggunakan rezeki yg dianugerahkan tu dengan sebaiknya supaya tidak ditarik balik. Kalau nak di renung kembali dari mule takde keje sampai sekarang, memang rasa tersangat2 bersyukur sebab dah bekerja.Bile dah dapat kerja tu ada sampai tolak pulak offer dari company lain.Nasib baik la masa transition bertukar kerja tu takde gap menggangur.Minggu ni resign minggu depan masuk company lain, rasa mcm tak caya je.Itu kisah lame.Nasib baik tak tergolong dalam 80000 graduan yang masih menganggur tu.
Well, sebenarnya baru balik dari Langkawi semalam sebab ada induksi khusus di Institut Pengurusan Peladang milik kementerian jugak.5 hari kat sana.2 minggu lepas pegi A'Famosa Resort kat melaka pasal ada persidangan,4 hari kat sana.Travel n Travel.Nasib baik la pegi balik Langkawi naik flight MAS, takde la letih sangat naik bas mcm budak2 lain.Untung jadi pegawai.Kalo naik flight tu about 50 to 1 hour jugak masa penerbangan, berbanding ngn bas 8 jam.Dah lama tak naik flight,tu yang 'jakun' skit tuh.Masa nak landing kat Langkawi tu bergegar skit pesawat sebab angin kuat.Cuak hati ni sebab tgk pesawat gegar semacam.Tapi Alhamdulillah selamat jugak mendarat.Bertolak puku 11 pagi sampai pukul 12.Lepas tu nak kene tunggu kawan sorang lagi mendarat flight seterusnya sebab dia je yang plane lain.Kalo gerak dulu kang dia tak tau lak nak tuju arah kat Langkawi ni.Sepanjang kursus tu dengar ceramah je disamping ada aktiviti skit dalam kumpulan.Kene form satu group dan kita plak kene jadi ketua,lepas tu kene namakan kumpulan dgn huruf 'L'.so terfikir dalam minda nak namakan dengan nama 'Lestari' yang bererti kekal, tidak berubah.Dah bagi nama plak lepas tu kene lukis semua ahli kumpulan dlm kertas kajang mcm potret.nasib baik ada member yg terrer lukis2 nih.nak suruh kita lukis bleh jugak tapi lambat la sebab style kita nk lukis muke orng ni mmg detail.member ni lukis stail kartun tapi memang perfect la.lupe lak nak snap gambar yg dah siap aritu.actuall group kita 3 lelaki 5 perempuan.And one of the team member tu someone yang kita dah lama perati(admire) sejak dari persidangan aritu,she from Law Department and she the Lawyer.Memang among the women yang hadir kursus tu, she look so gorgeus.Tak sangka lak satu group ngn kita, and one more thing bilik pun sebelah je,dia duduk dgn another my officemate.sape yang tak suke,but for me between she and me like lyric in A to Z songs "Darjat"....well you know me, when i like someone,i just keep in my heart.I think maybe she already have one.My mind set like that,beautiful women for handsome man.And i not one of them.huhuhuhu! well i keep try to ask my friend to 'dig' something from her.But I'm not hoping something for it.Just wanna know only.Who's know maybe she still single and available,huuhuhuhuh...ok full stop for the gossip.So,Pekan Kuah was our destination la especially for shopping."Duty Free" items like chocos and Batiks was the favo thing for us.Other items still the same as KL.So me only borong Batiks for my mum, Pelikat and chocos especially.Borong habis habisan,but not all for me bcause my friends also ada kirim.After that main bowling kat Jeti.Lagi murah than KL.And that last day yesterday we were going to Cable Car,the most scariest car in my life..hahahah..with 703 metres above sea,this car doesn't have a wheel at the bottom , but it wheel located at the top..huhuhuhu! For only RM15 per person,i can climb up 2 mountain without using my hand and leg, just sit and the rest will be done by cable car,hahahahha...so me and roomate,SHE and my another frieds a.k.a her roomate sit together on that cable car.For the first time we feel so scary when looking down there while the cable pulling that tiny box which we sit on.So when we arrived at first mountain, we take some time to look around and taking some picture.Then we continue our 'journey' to next mountain to have some nice scenery from the top.This is my precious moment while in Langkawi,thank to God for letting me have a great scenery of God's creatures,MasyaAllah so beautiful to see the ocean from the top of mountain.Time will go on, we have to go because our flight at 4.10pm and need to be there at 2.30pm for check in.And Langkawi we leave you here and dunno when to come back,maybe next time, may the sweet moment will remain in my mind.

The 'UMIZARU' story...

2004-12-05T09:26:00.000+08:00

Today i've to attend my friend's wedding at Putrajaya.. Ramai sangat yg kawin arini, sampai 2 3 orang pada hari yang sama...And next week will be another wedding of my friend. Sampai tak terpergi, only dapat attend yang dekat2 ni jer...yela kita takde kereta yg bleh bergerak ke sana ke sini, yang ada hanya motor yang mampu membawa diri ni pegi balik keje jer... Member2 yang kawin tu sumernyer pempuan, coz pempuan memang deserve utk kawin awal..nanti kalau lambat orang mengata pulak..lain la lelaki nie, mcm aku ade tanggungjawab yg nak disettlekan pada keluarga aku,sebelum aku sendiri berkeluarga kelak...cewah...tapi betul ape...sementara org tua masih hidup ni time ni la nak berjasa pada mereka...well, my friend yg kawin tu kawan sediploma dulu, but mase degree course lelain...friendship among kawan2 sediploma masih kuat lagi,coz at that time memang takde berpuak2 mcm degree nie...and we have egroup for us to announce any update about us. and nak wish kat sini "Selamat Pengantin Baru Suhana@Kak Su"...datang umah dia tak sempat nak jumpa/ tengok dia bersanding, budak2 lain pun tak tgk sebab dah jumpa dia kat umah dia tingkat 6 tu..aku dan member sorang lagi makan kat balai kat bawah..ni je la 2 org lelaki yg datang, yg lain tu tak tau la ada hal memasing...yg geng pempuan ada la nampak jugak...nak bersalam ngn bapak dia pun tak sempat sebab bapak dia dah naik atas umah ...nak masuk umah segan lak kita org lelaki ni...kalo ade member2 pempuan yg pegi skali bleh la jugak tgk pengantin...hmmm takpe la janji dapat datang pada hari perkahwinan dia tu...dan satu lagi nak wish "Selamat Pengantin Baru Sunita"....another friend of my jugak...tapi majlis dia kat Keratong ...camne nak datang ke sana, jauh beb...Tak tau la sapa yg dapat mewakili kengkawan datang ke rumah dia...Balik jer dari Putrajaya tu terus pegi Sunway tgk wayang... Nak ajak member aku Mie tu dia takdapat lak sebab besok dia nak mengajar, kene prepare modul utk student ... So dia balik terus dan aku meneruskan perjalanan aku ke Sunway Pyramid...memang sebelum ni dah niat nak tgk citer tu, sebab dah booking through M-Cinema Maxis..Cerita Umizaru..mcm best jer ...kat layar skrin aku tgk maksud dia "Penyelam Wira"...ntah betul atau salah tak tau la aku maksud dia...mungkin terbalik kot.Tengok sengsorang, kalo ade awek kan best bleh ajak awek...tapi awek pun blum ade tgk sengsorang jer la...Tak sangka Umizaru ni hebat jugak citer dia...banyak element2 pengajaran yang membuatkan aku kagum dgn citer nie.. cerita ni mengajar bagaimana nak menghargai erti persahabatan, tak mementingkan diri sendiri, tolong-menolong dan kerjasama.... Yang paling tak best citer ni bile ade scene yg menyedihkan, kehilangan seorang kawan rapat..puas jugak aku nak menahan airmata aku ni...memang memberi kesan dalam jiwa betul..memang aku pulak jenis org mcm ni, sentimental.. sebab tu aku suke tgk citer2 mcm nie....Citer ni memang berguna pada mereka yg ingin mengejar cita2 tu, mcm dalam citer ni Senzuki hampir berhenti dari latihan untuk menjadi penyelam penyelamat di sebabkan kematian partner dia sewaktu nak partner dia nak selamatkan org lemas... tetapi selepas mendengar citer dari makcik kantin tmpat training dia terus membatalkan hasrat untuk berhenti demi kawan dia. so kepada sesapa yang tak tengok lagi ada masa pegi tengok,memang 4/5 aku bagi rate.. Sebab ape tak penuh,sebab last skali ending dia tak abih...ada sambungan Umizaru 2 plak..kisah Senzuki pada next movie....tensen betul la...ingatkan dah abih dah movie tu sampai dah kuar nama2 pelakon...penonton pun dah tinggalkan kerusi memasing nak kuar, alih2 ade lagi seminit 2 babak dia...aksi Senzuki nak selamat kan penumpang kapal yg dah nak karam. lepas tu kapal tu meletup dan Senzuki berkata "saya akan kembali lagi"...bersambung plak citer tu..ni yg aku tak sabar nak tunggu ni....

Unsettled things....

2004-12-04T09:16:00.000+08:00

1st Saturday/week of the month...cuti hari ni sejak bergelar seorang pegawai kerajaan...biasa dulu aku memang kerja 5 hari je ...so bile dah masuk gomen ni kene follow gomen punya waktu kerja..Surat sumpah cop lagi,camne aku bleh tak prasan benda tu kene buat.bengong betul..kan dah payah nak cari org yg bleh menyumpah surat aku tu, sumpah jadi duit ok gak....ni nak bagi cop jer...gomen lak arini cuti camne nak amik cop...nak taknak terpaksa la buat mase hari kerja, cabut jap pegi mane2 pesuruhjaya sumpah kat kl tu..Medical ni pun satu tak siap lagi..poning betul..tak antar takleh dapat gaji nanti...harap2 sumer settle sebelum ujung blan 12 ni...rumah sewa lagi..tak jumpa2 lagi ni camne.dah la sampai ujung bulan ni jer tinggal, kalo tak jumpa mane la aku nak duduk sementara nak tunggu bulan 2 ni..InsyaAllah blan 2 ni pindah Putrajaya sebab kementerian pertanian pindah sana..syok skit..kene cari la umah sewa sane..Alamanda Alamanda Alamanda...tak penah pun pegi lagi shopping complex kat putrajaya tu... cari2 iklan umah sewa kat kompleks pkns tu kot2 ade yg kosong..tak jugak jumpe semuanya dah ada tuan...yg tuan rumah ni pun satu bengong, dah tau dah ada org duduk cabut la iklan tu, takde la aku sesusah ngabihkan kredit nelepon. ni yg nak marah nih! ... tau takpe .... tensen2 balik umah layan dvd lagi bagus...citer korean "Windstruck" ni menusuk jiwa betul la...rasa2 mcm sambungan citer "My Sassy Girl" jer...citer tu jer aku dah layan bape kali tah... tapi 2 2 citer ni memang best...memang feeling abih..lawak pun ada..kan best kalo ade awek mcm tu, yg bleh memahami...heheheehe

Unexpected Majlis Hari Raya.....

2004-12-03T09:12:00.000+08:00

Today Majlis hari raya kementerian pertanian dan industri asas tani malaysia a.k.a tempat aku bekerja la tu..berbatik aku arini,sebab aku takde baju melayu untuk dipakai.so ada option pakai baju batik aku pakai jer la...baju yg dibeli kat kamdar malam semalam...bertuah betul aku hari ni,selain berkesempatan untuk menyertai majlis hari raya kementerian ni , majlis ni turut diserikan dengan kedatangan Datuk Seri Abdullah Haji Ahmad Badawi, PM yg kita sayangi... Menteri Pertanian a.k.a bigboss aku ialah Tan Sri Muhyiddin Yassin..ramai jugak org datang, seluruh Malaysia yg mewakili jabatan pertanian masing2 disetiap negeri....PM datang pukul 1130, sempat ambil gambar dia masa tgh potong daging rusa tu ditemani Tan Sri..cume tak sempat nak bersalam dengan dia.seronok dapat bertemu Pak Lah secara dekat, sebab selama ni tgk kat tv jer...
Mcm2 juadah dihidangkan, sampaikan aku tak sempat nak jamah semuanya..member2 lain amik mkann terus bawak ke bilik makan kat sane..kat luar ramai sangat org..aku tengok ada orang tu 'jadik' makan otak-otak jer..memang pulun abih benda tu,memang gemar agaknye..yg aku ni pulun sate jer..sate sate sate..tu yg aku tau,kalo ada menda tu dalam majlis memang tu aku 'sebat' dulu..
Majlis ni memang istimewa betul, nak2 org seperti aku ni baru masuk...memang kire bertuah la aku..

Fuh leganya....

2004-12-02T09:10:00.000+08:00

Memang aku tak sangka bos aku kat BTM tu suruh aku masuk bahagian pembangunan sistem, sebab ada kekosongan disitu...ada satu lagi kekosongan kat bahagian operasi tapi apsal bos tak bagi aku masuk ke situ...lemah skit aku kene kat pembangunan sistem. bukan ape, sebab kene tahu PHP,oracle,mysql dan ape2 lagi yg web-based oriented...sebab sumer sistem yg dibangunkan guna web-based...dah la aku ni sangap tentang web...kalo gune vb 6 tu bleh la...vb.net pun tak mahir2 lagi...kalo dapat bahagian operasi best skit sebab memang kene bidang aku..deal ngn network n manage server2 ni...memang teknikal la...taknak pening2 kepala memikirkan algoritma lagi...nak2 yg kompleks tu...kalu yg biase2 tu takpe la...sebab dah biasa dengan network,config2 router..so bile tgk device kat bilik server tu,rasa rindu nak pegang/config router mula datang....kalau bleh memang nak terus get along with network ni...bukan nak kata diri ni hebat ke ape, cume rasa mcm knowledge ni sia2 jer kalau tak involve dalam bhgn operation ni..dah ada ccna n ccnp to be, so kene la apply to real time punye situation...baru happening... lagi pun aku tgk network kat sini messy skit, dengan takde documenttationnyer... sorang jer PSM yg handle bhgn ni, Hasnita..yg lain sumer penolong PSM...so 'penat' jugak la dia nak bekerja sorang...ada aku ni harap dapat meringan kan kerja dia skit..kat pembangunan sistem tu aku tengok dah ramai dah PSM nyer..ada dalam 3 4 org...berbanding operasi hanya sorang...tu pun nasib baik ada Penolong PSM lelaki yg tolong. so pujuk2 Hasnita suruh bos tukar aku bahagian operasi...akhirnya berjaya jua...Time kasih kat Hasnita sebab tolong aku...Nasib baik la dia dah kawin hahhahaha...so lepas ni memang tugas2 berat menanti aku untuk mencari solution nak meng'efficien'kan network kat kementerian pertanian nih...

Life, New Beginning.......

2004-11-29T09:06:00.000+08:00

Today woke up early..Nak lapor diri and dengar taklimat kat JPA Putrajaya pukul 0815..dan jugak nak tau nasib aku mane la dicempaknye aku untuk bekerja...mintak mintak tak jauh la.. so sampai sane, ramai jugak yg register untuk pos PSM ni. ada 38 org termasuk aku, dan JuruTeknik komputer seramai 9 orang. Sebelum dapat surat penempatan tu, dengar taklimat dari en. radhuan, penolong pengarah JPA tu..masa yg dinanti telah tiba...memang cuak nak terima surat penempatan tu sebab dia kata muktamad dapat tempat tu, takleh tukar tmpat lain..kene terima seada nya.."SAYA YG MENURUT PERINTAH"..itu lah yg diajarnyer bile dah masuk gomen ni...ayat yg sering ada dalam surat2 rasmi kerajaan..bukan sekadar suka2 letak ayat tu, kene fahami ayat tu.. berdebar2 aku nak bukak surat tu."Adalah dengan hormatnya dimaklumkan bahawa En. Ab Malek bin Idris, dengan ini ditempatkan di BAHAGIAN TEKNOLOGI MAKLUMAT, KEMENTERIAN PERTANIAN DAN INDUSTRI ASAS TANI MALAYSIA", Jalan Sultan Salahuddin Kuala Lumpur...pergh kat kl la pulak..bajet nak dapat kat Putrajaya,sebab ramai member keje kat sana..so senang la nak pakat duk umah sewa...tapi dapat kat kl la plak, ulang alik shah alam kl la nampaknya..tapi alhamdulillah dapat kat kl pun takpe, janji bukan kat perak, pahang , atau tempat2 lain yg jauh sewaktu dengannya..kalau kat johor dapat kat segamat tu takpe la jugak,dekat ngn rumah aku..tapi hati aku terubat jugak bile dapat tahu kementerian pertanian ni akan pindah ke Putrajaya bulan 2 tahun depan..tercapai jugak cita2 nak bekerja di Putrajaya..dan kat kementerian pertanian ni ada jugak partner mase blajar kat U dulu..satu kelas plak tu dulu,tapi dia masuk awal dulu blan 10 yg sepatut nya aku saing ngn dia skali lapor diri.. Yang dapat posting ke kementerian ni bukan aku sorang je, ada lagi sorang budak laki yg dpat tapi dia lambat skit register ke sana sebab ada notis 1 week lgi kat tempat keje lama dia..so dia akan register kat kementrian tu lambat skit...kire bertambah la skit Pegawai sitem maklumat lelaki kat BTM tu, yg kebanyakkan nya pempuan skang ni...peh, dikelilingi pempuan la camni..camne nak buat keje camni hehheh..tapi yg pasti harap aku dapat menjalankan tugas aku dgn baik di sana nanti.. petang tu aku pegi kl lapor diri ke Pusat sumber manusia kat kementerian tu di Putra Place sebelah PWTC tu..tapi opis aku bukan kat situ, opis aku kat Wisma Tani di Jalan Sultan Salahuddin dekat2 ngn BNM dan JKR tu. sebab HR kementerian tu terpisah skit dari kementrian tu,lain2 tempat tak sebangunan...lepas pindah ke Putrajaya nanti baru la berada dibawah satu bumbung. So aku tnggu nak dapat kan surat pengesahan lapor diri dari bos kat HR tu sebelum aku gi lapor diri kat BTM sane esok. Punch Card pun dah dapat aritu , sebb dikira aku masuk aritu..kene punch card beb!..masuk keje 0815 balik kul 0445.

2004-11-28T22:33:00.000+08:00

With another teammates..nice to know you

2004-11-28T22:31:00.000+08:00

With nice Nevo shirt..Gaya seorang Network Engineer Terlampau!

2004-11-28T22:30:00.000+08:00

Gambar kenang-kenangan with my boss(in white shirt)..

2004-11-28T22:28:00.000+08:00

Gambar sewaktu farewell party bersama officemate..

2004-11-28T22:27:00.000+08:00

Gambar kenang-kenangan sebelum resignation..

Another story of my life, begin tomorrow......

2004-11-28T20:30:00.000+08:00

Am i dreaming?... Syukur kehadrat-Nya akhirnya dapat berkhidmat dengan kerajaan. Sememangnya sebelum ini aku memang berminat untuk berkhidmat dengan gov., tapi selepas ku temui 'bakat' ku di Time, rasa seronok pulak kerja di situ. Tetapi "dah jodoh tak panjang" kata bos aku, dengan hati yg berat terpaksa juga aku melepaskan jawatan yg ku idam idamkan selama ini. Aku harap di sana nanti dapat ku perkembangkan lagi bakatku, walaupun ada yg mengatakan kerja dekat gov. ni lepak2 je tak payah susah2 pening kepala pikir pasal coding atau network implementation. Just duduk kat kerusi sain2 kertas. Tapi bagi aku gov. dulu ngn sekarang lain,mcmana nak maju kalau sentiasa begitu.. Aku sendiri pun bukan jenis yg suke duduk2 sesaja tanpa buat kerja, sebab kita dibayar gaji untuk bekerja bukan untuk bersenang lenang. Aku seronok dengar cerita dari kawan aku yg telah masuk ke sana, dapat bekerja dalam bidang yg dia minat..improve network gov. dan handle system. Kalau boleh aku pun harap dapat sebegitu..boleh la aku perbaiki kelemahan yg sedia ada.. Itu sudah sememang nya job scope aku di sana nanti..Tapi tak tahu di manakah 'di sana' nanti aku ditempatkan..Harap2 ianya tidak menyusahkan aku nanti...Kak Sab menulis testimonial dalam friendster pada hari terakhir aku, "baru je nak meng'Apprentice'kan budak nie dah nak resign.." Nak buat camne kak, dah lagu nie.. Mana taknya, aku banyak meng'solve'kan customer punya network, lebih2 lagi troubleshoot melalui telefon..sampaikan adakalanya aku naik hangin satu badan dek kerenah customer..yg mana terlalu rumit untuk disolvekan tu, kene la aku 'turun padang' untuk settle kan nya. tapi aku pikir seronok jugak dapat solve kan problem...Tetapi pengalaman yg paling berharga sewaktu di Time dotnet tu ialah berkomunikasi dgn customer dari Switzerland..org sane punya loghat tau je la, memang pekat...terpaksa la aku tambah air untuk mencairkannya...hahahahah..So far alhamdulillah kesemua problem customer yg aku handle dapat aku settlekan..tak sia sia aku amik training Cisco dulu..memang bermanafaat sesangat..Aku akui selama bekerja di sana tu, kawan2 sekerja aku tgk aku serius saja bile bekerja depan laptop aku tu..(padahal aku sedang berYahoo Messenger dgn seriusnya! hehehe..)...tapi keja pun keja gak..tak la YM 24 jam....aku memang tak banyak bercakap, sebab partition aku kat paling depan skali dari 6 partition yg ada...sebelah aku kosong sebab tempat tu ada pc server untuk kegunaan team aku..jadi kalau aku nak bercakap ngn teammate pun kene toleh blakang la. Selalu yg jadi teman borak aku ialah kak Sab sebab dia duk belakang aku, dan kengkadang mengusik kak Sherry yg cute kat blakang skali... Tapi diorang baru tahu dalam diam2 aku kat depan tu, bila part2 mengusik/memperli diorang memang takdapat nak tahan..mesti tergelak punye dengan lawak selamba aku..lawak tak berperasaan...Tapi itu semua dulu. Esok diorang mesti rasa mcm 'kehilangan' sebab takde lagi lawak selamba dari aku, terutama kak sherry. sebab lepas ni takde org lagi nak perli2 dia bergayut kat telefon lelame... akak ku yang baik hati ni begitu jugak kat kak Sab..dua2 dah kawin dah..wish ada kakak camtu tapi adik bradik aku lelaki semua...so diorang tu seperti kakak angkat bagi aku....kisah aku ni mcm kisah mimi jer dulu, dapat kerja kat tmpt baru..tapi bezanya dia dapat kat company swasta..better offer kot. tapi case aku lain skit..kalau aku dapat offer lain dari company swasta, aku reject sebab aku gembira kat sini...tapi offer yg aku dapat ni dari JPA, tak bleh aku tolak sebab takut kene blacklist kemudian hari..ini pun dah malu sebab merayu kat diorang pertimbangkan semula offer letter aku yg telah terlepas date tu...makcik aku yg merayukan untuk aku..rasanya dulu mcm dah nak complete je team IP Planning aku dulu, sebab cukup2 6 org sebelum mimi keluar dan ada sorang staff baru masuk selepas aku, Ezzudin...tapi kembali berlima dan sekarang berempat. Aku harap din dapat bertahan lama skit kat Time tu... kalau tak nanti bertambah pening bos aku tu sebab staff team dia tak pernah 'melekat'...asyik kluar masuk jer... Kesian jugak kat dia, dah plan mcm2 kat aku, termasuk involving dalam project IPVPN UIA tu...ingat lagi mase aku ikut dia pegi meeting kat UIA gombak aritu..discuss dgn org UIA pasal project tu.. sayang betul takdapat involve lagi dalam project tu...aku harap pengganti aku lepas ni lebih 'meriah' dari aku...dengar bos nak amik lagi 2 orang, lelaki n pempuan.. pengganti aku, aku dah calon kan member aku yana dari Wisma Time tu sebab dia pun dah bosan kat sane buat keje yg tak banyak relate ngn qualification dia...budak network buat customer service, mana masuk maa..at least kat sini nanti dia bleh la jugak apply ape yg dia blajar mase kat uitm dulu, config2 router and troubleshoot skali....harap dia dapat buat mcm aku buat, malah lebih dari itu lagi..Kalau dapat customer mcm org dari Switzerland tu aku harap dia dapat handle... aku rasa team Network Ops pun terkejut dgn resignation aku. ..sorang pun tak tahu...yg tahu cume bhgn division ISP aku jer... mungkin isnin diorang diorang baru tahu selepas membaca farewell emel dari aku sebelum blah aritu.. begitu jugak kak sham dari team system, tak dapat jumpa dia minggu terakhir aku sebab dia cuti lagi nak prepare kawin arini..mesti dia pun terkejut..tak dapat lagi nak tempah kuih raya dari dia... kak sham nampak brutal sebab dia dulu bekas palapes mase blajar, tapi baik hati... tak dapat nak datang ke majlis perkahwinan dia kat NS arini...sempat bagi wish melalui sms tadi, bersama perkhabaran resignation aku...Tak sangka esok aku tidak lagi melangkah ke office di glenmerie tu, sebaliknya ke Putrajaya.. Semoga tempat baru nanti menjanjikan sesuatu yg lebih indah....

I'll be missed u all..

2004-11-27T20:32:00.000+08:00

Dear Team and all my colleagues,

The time has finally arrived. So sad to leave you all here,after 2 months we were together..sharing difficulties and happiness... but life must goes on...Thank you very much for all you support and co-orperation when i was here. Special Thanks goes to:

En. Azmy
Appreciate your guidance to me, giving me chances to expose new knowledge here..You are very kind type of bos i ever met. Hope your project will be successful...i just not so lucky didn't have an opportunity to continue involve in your project..

Kak Sherry
Thank you sister, for your help and guidance for netllink ... you are there when i need help..never forget that..you are good listener...thanks for that...

Kak Sabeq
My big sister, you're very nice to me, especially when guiding me with broadband patiently.. i'm surprise with your ability in configuring router...

William a.k.a 'Melayu'
William the joker, thanks a lot..i take you job as 'tukang angkat kotak modem' from store heheeh...joking jer william, for me it's okay as long i have sumthing to do..and all the guidance you give to me, i appreciate it very much..

Ezzudin
Thanks for being my partner here, after i lose my partner before..but now seem this happen to you also..hope you can carry on and can learn so much knowledge here..just be patient for that..

To Broadband Team,Backbone Team, DataCentre Team,System Team,Security Team, Network Operations Team and CAA Team,

Nice to know you all, hope you all can continue support Time in giving the best services to the customer. I'll pray for your success.
Forgive me if i have made mistaken during my day here.You all always in my heart.

Goodbye my colleagues, till the day we'll meet again...

2004-11-26T17:03:00.000+08:00

Hari yg di tunggu telah tiba....my last day of job has come...sapa yg tak sedih, tapi perjuangan tetap diterus kan...Selepas bersama mereka dalam satu team selama 2 bulan setengah, kini aku mengundur diri ke tempat lain. Aku terima semua ini dengan tabah, kerana aku sedar tindakan aku ni betul untuk masa depan...rezeki berada di mana mana, cume kita kena pandai berusaha mencarinya...
Terharu dengan jamuan perpisahan kecil kecilan yg diorang buat, especially my team and bos, and other friends also...kak sherry, kak sabariah, william, ezzudin and my beloved bos, en. azmy, i'll be missed u all. Tak dapat menulis panjang lagi sebab terharu sangat .....ku kenang u all dalam doa ku...amin

So here how this happen.........

2004-11-25T20:24:00.000+08:00

To come out into writing is not easy.i have to dig my mind and decide the things i have to write.To all my friends out there yang tertanya- tanye why i leaving(resign) too early at Time..I'm not intend to do so, but it is faith..here is the storyFor your information, I've applied SPA for post of PSM before i applied Time. I got the interview, around last July and not success but they keep me in waiting list. So i think i failed for that interview. I'm moving to S.A from my brother's house, because he also got a new house and i didn't manage to stay with him and his family. I want to be myself.And then 2 weeks after that got interview from Time. The thing is i've pushed all my effort to join Time, as my interest in networking area. I wanna be part of Time family. I have applied 3 times (repeat 3 times) to get place there. Luckily they finally see my 'hidden talent' and i think that 3rd position i applied met my qualification. I don't know what to say if this 3rd attempt cannot go through..maybe there is no place for me there. Then they hired me and i'm so lucky,dont know what to say..thanks to all my friend who has helped me.So i join in mid Sept, and without my intention that SPA offer just arrived early that month at my previous house. So I didn't noticed that, until my brother has checked if there is a letter in his previous house,a month later. He call me to said that offer has been to expired because it has been there for a month from that date.If i dont reply within 30 days from that date, they assume i'm not interest to join gov. They also have sending pos laju, that contain appointment letter which date should i register. that pos laju also become expired since it was at the post office for almost 2 weeks. i read carefully that letter, i've to register 12/10 but the date i claim pos laju was 15/10! what da unlucky i am. i didn't take any action of that , because i think i already have a job now, didn't realize that gov. sector is secure job that my current job. My parents know that , they said it was faith. I didn't tell my aunties yet, until Hari Raya when i visiting their house. I told everything, and they were shocked and a lil bit marah marah,kecewa. Then my auntie ask her friend whose work in JPA if my case can be accepted or not, merayu la. Her friend said this case can be tolerate with her bos. My mind so confuse at that time. Thinking of job i love,my passion is my current job right now..because i enjoy working with it. i can learn many things and know a lot of people i deal with. So my auntie advice me rayu balik at jpa and she will help me. at that time i don't know what to do, just follow what she say. 22/11, first week most of people back to work after raya she pickup me at office to Putrajaya. I'm working that day, buat that morning i ask my bos to go out about 2 hour, without tell him that i'm going to Putrajaya. At Putrajaya, auntie met her friend and tell what to do. Her friend take a look at my offer letter and bring to her bos.Then she came back with good news, that offer letter still valid and new date i have to register is on 29/11. Again i shock,dunno what to say. Not shock because of happy, but didnt believe i have to register next week. that mean i will resign this friday!..what my bos will say if i told him this news? maybe he will sad because i will leaving this company..he has plan so many things for me....He has giving a hope to me because he now i'am a good staff (not to show off) among my team i didnt realize like that because i'm only 2 months here...well he's the bos,and know my progress so far .i know he have plan to train me to as much because there a lot of project will coming and interesting. That day i take half day leave because of that news...my auntie wants me to join the gov. and my family also. Because they have told that gov. have a lot of benefit and secure..i realize that and accept it. i don't want to break their heart because of my wrong decision, because they all care about my future. This the chance that not all people can get it. I use my time to do a medical checkup. Everthing is done. The thing is how to face my bos tomorrow..Before i take half day before, the person that i only let know is kak sherry, because she like my kakak angkat in my team..kak sab tak tau lagi mase tu...I have told bos, dgn terketar2. tak sampai hati memberitahunya..he accept that , i know deep in his heart he sad to this. he will lost a very dedicated staff in his team. all my friend there sad to here this.. this news smpai ke wisma time sane,some of CAA team also knew it.and they also sad.hmmm nak buat camne, i have to decide my future. so i have explain all that i have to. Resign letterpun dah submit...hinggakan nak submit resign letter ke kak gee terketar2...hmmmmmm...i hope what i do is right...friends out there, relakan pemergianku ini.

Dan, Menjelang esok.....

2004-11-25T13:12:00.000+08:00

aku masih di sini,
menunggu hari esok yang pasti menjelma,
hari yang ku takdapat elakkan seperti hari2 lain.
tetapi,
hari esok tidak seperti hari2 yg biasa kutempuhi,
yang dapat ku hadapi seperti biasa,
masih lagi terkejut dengan apa yg telah berlaku,
dikala diriku sedang tenang melalui hari2 yg berlalu.
akan tetapi,
hari esok adalah hari penamat utk kerjayaku,
yang ku idami selama ini,
walaupun diperhentian seterusnya lebih menjamin masa depanku,
akan ku pergi jua,
demi menghargai kaum keluargaku yang menginginkannya,
kerna aku tidak mahu melihat mereka kecewa kerana kesilapanku,
memilih haluan hidup.
Dan aku pasrah menghadapinya,
kerna aku juga menginginkan nya dahulu,
aku ingin melihat mereka yang disayangi,
gembira dengan keputusanku,
kerna aku tidak mahu mereka berduka,
kerna ku juga anggap diri ku derhaka jika mengingkarinya,
dan tidak dapat memaafkan diriku.
akan tetapi,
ku gembira sepanjang di sini,
berkenalan dengan mereka,
yang telah banyak memberi tunjuk ajar,
serta pertolongan di kala memerlukan.
semoga jasa kalian hanya tuhan saja dapat membalasnya,
kerna Dia Maha Pengasih lagi Penyayang,
semoga kalian sentiasa berada dalam ingatanku,
hingga akhir hayat...aminn

Terkejut? macam tak percaya je!

2004-11-22T13:48:00.000+08:00

Hari ni aku terkejut, betul betul terkejut...sampai aku takdapat meneruskan writing aku kat blog untuk hari ini....peristiwa hari ini betul2 merubah kerjaya aku pada masa hadapan...aku amik half day arini di sebab kan 'keterkejutan' itu..

Long time no see, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri...

2004-11-11T13:38:00.000+08:00

Fuhhh..it's been almost more than a weeks i not writing on this blog...why? hemmmmm..busy..mcm tak cukup tangan..hihihi..no time to update the blog,sometime balik rumah after work at night,tired to do some writing...bukak laptop only to listen mp3 and movie i downloaded at office..so many thing happen in this 2 weeks..n not forget SELAMAT HARI RAYA to all my muslim friend...This year punya puasa memang happening..bermewah-mewahan...not me,but vendor for my company organise majlis berbuka puasa at hotel....merasa jugak berbuka kat hotel nie...let me count, so far 3 hotel and 1 resort.....first Sheraton Subang, then melantak at Grand Bluewave Shah alam, after that visiting Paris Hilton punya hotel, PJ Hilton..cari2 jugak dia, kot2 dia ada heheheh...and lastly kat Hyatt Saujana Subang...thumbs up to all these places..memang best diorang punya menu...my friends said why dont we bring some plastic bag to take some food to bring back..hahahahaha..nafsu tu bile dah menguasai diri mcm mcm bleh jadi...but we eat what we can..tak elok makan terlalu kenyang..walaupun aku pun same gak,sampai nak rukuk sembahyang pun rasa mcm nak terkucil...hahahah..isk isk isk astaga....but yg pelik nya,mkn bagai nak rak, badan still camni lagi...susah tul nak 'berkembang'...apsal orang lain senang sangat ek!...org lain beria2 nak kurus aku ni nak gemuk..but not to gemuks sangat la...just kalo bleh dapat cover tulang rusuk ni...hahah...dulu sampai bleh kire tulang rusuk nie...makan jaga beb..(duit takde time tu)....skang ni pun dah terikut2 dah peel tu...makan skit2 je...then saving....tapi tak jugak,beli benda lain...my friends kata mesti duit aku ni dah berkepuk2 dalam bank tu..sebab saving...hahahaa..takde pun...well, got hari raya leave for a weeks..from deepavali until 18 nov, but to work on friday..only that day,then weekend break...rasa mcm wasting je...only 1 day kerja..mmm nak buat camne,my bos has decided like that...kalau dapat cuti sampai minggu depan ok gak...buat im new staff, takleh demand sangat..kene bagi senior cuti lame....plan to going home by motocycle,jadi rider...sejak dulu lagi...itu je yg mampu...my brothers also going home by car...so balik sorang2 je,takde la sorang2 sangat..beratus keta ngn moto kat highway tu,bukan aku sorang je balik raya...subuh lagi dah bertolak pulang,time yg sesuai nak balik..keta tak banyak masa tu...but kat senawang to seremban skit jam,not bad sangat la...this time balik raya rasa mcm buat rekod....3 hours journey...biasa 3 1/2 jam...maybe jalan lengang skit..bleh la up up skit...hehehe..but law kene patuh gak... well alhamdulillah sampai jugak kat umah tercinta...tak bawak barang banyak sangat,coz dah kirim kat my brother suruh dia bawak...bawak laptop je la ngn baju2 skit...tu yg bleh sampai awal tu..hehhe..mmm dah sampai takde buat apa sangat, take rest ...esok ada berbuka puasa ngn member lame...........

2004-11-02T11:24:00.000+08:00

Her brother,also cute!

2004-11-02T11:23:00.000+08:00

my nephew, she grown up!

Not feeling well....

2004-10-30T08:54:00.000+08:00

Saturday...nothing to do with this day...almost miss sahur, wake up at 0520 am although i am awake at 0400 am after my phone clock ringing..only sempat to take a cup of nestum i bought yesterday and kurma..not to forget 2 tablet of panadol....my head rasa sakit lagi,badan pun so weak...rasa nak demam from yesterday...maybe sebab redah hujan the day before..every evening hujan..hmmmmso many things to think..make my brain pain...from job to personal life....if there a sea in front of me, rasa mcm nak berenang like malik maidin,nama pun same but bapak n mak je lelain...hahaaha..Being a networkman make me to have a big responsibility to learn and to research something new..well i deserve for that. my headache come when to think a lot of think in a same time...i have to manage the time for myself...when we work,just concentrate on it....minimize time to do other thing that not related to work....so now i have to get serious in work..my bos has give something to do,some 1 to 2 projects for me to get involve..must study the project..paper Troubleshooting tak ambil lagi,some of my friends dah ambil yesterday... dunno the result..maybe my turn lepas raya..i must to work hard on this paper,sebab friends cakap susah..several have failed, i don't want to fail anymore after fail in Switching paper...mengecewakan..hope to pass in this last paper,so i can afford to use my own money to retake back Switching paper...dengar dah naik dah exam fee utk paper CCNP tu..about RM580..that all my fault not to study very well..it's not just not my fault,that training center late to booking the exam..it's been a year now actually i take that course..sepatutnya diorang buat exam tu after budak2 habis study,that time our brain still fresh and remember what we have learnt..when going to practical training,not all of us will have an opportunity to apply what we have learn because of company yang provide tempat praktical tu..ada yg kerja mcm kerani pun ade,buat kerja office,not the networking one..for me and some of my friend are lucky sebab kerja kat tempat yg ada la related to network....hoping demam akan berakhir hari ni, so bleh la buat kerja skit2,n study.....several days ago my friend give this quote:
"Perempuan itu selembut agar2,jgn d lentur secara mengejut, nanti ia patah, perempuan itu ibarat api yg panas, sejukkan ia dgn nasihat selembut sutera, jiwa wanita itu sedingin salju, panaskannya dgn belaian kasih sebening kristal..... "
" Nafsu mengatakan perempuan itu cantik atas dasar rupanya. Akal mengatakan perempuan itu cantik atas dasar ilmu dan kepintarannya. Dan hati mengatakan perempuan itu cantik atas dasar akhlaknya....."
kata2 tu membuatkan ku berfikir sejenak...tentang kebenarannya..adakah selama ini aku mengikut kata hati atau pandangan mata?..hingga hari ini masih lagi memikirkan mengenainya...

Woman
Woman I can hardly express
My mixed emotions at my thoughtlessness
After all I'm forever in your debt
And woman I will try to express
My inner feelings and thankfulness
For showing me the meaning of success

Ooh, well, well
Doo, doo, doo, doo, doo
Ooh, well, well
Doo, doo, doo, doo, doo

Woman I know you understand
The little child inside of the man
Please remember my life is in your hands
And woman hold me close to your heart
However distant don't keep us apart
After all it is written in the stars

Ooh, well, well
Doo, doo, doo, doo, doo
Ooh, well, well
Doo, doo, doo, doo, doo

Well Woman please let me explain
I never meant to cause you sorrow or pain
So let me tell you again and again and again

I love you, yeah, yeah
Now and foreverI love you, yeah, yeah
Now and foreverI love you, yeah, yeah
Now and foreverI love you, yeah, yeah

-from john lennon

The Blurry....

2004-10-28T08:49:00.000+08:00

here i am, shouting out of nowhere...i feel like i want to fly like superman,crawling and swinging from building to building like a spiderman,turn to green like hulk...but i can't...all i can is to be myself, myself where everybody used to know me...trying to be the best of myself, but sometimes i can't..when something turn to uncertainty, we never knew what is going on...today seem like not usual or better then yesterday.....i trying to be nice to people,but sometimes i can't hide my expression to them when not in a mood..i try to smile, but there is no sweet on it....in the phone, i serve the call politely....got a call of urgency task of broadband activation..that task come into our group bucket this morning,and they want it as soon as possible because customer want it..actually every task must follow the timeline of procedure for activating the line..normally 8 days working...but in case of urgency, we can do it in 3 days,but the person who request for urgency must have the urgent form submit to us..we have follow the procedure right?.....now i can feel what my others team had faced such problem for many years.. that person want it quickly,ok i can do it..gimme 15 to 30 minutes to settle it..in the same time i have to receive other call, especially that technician man who work deploying the modem into customer site.. if they have some problem regarding connection or IP, i have to guide them until the problem settle. then the interruption may delay my time to finish the urgent one..then i finish preparing the letter for customer,waiting to print it..before that , i have to configure the IP for customer in the Alcatel switch..got some warning when saving the configuration...i don't know whether i will affect the operation on the switch because other customer also have their port on that switch...that person call again.."Dah siap ke?..saya tunggu kat bawah nie! nak amik surat dengan modem tu.."..that person rushed me.."ada problem skit kat switch,saya tgh config IP utk customer nie..tunggu kejap boleh?"..i replied.."mmm dah lambat ni,so kalau camtu takpe la hold dulu nanti esok ke ambik.." i feel like to blow up..."oooo ok ok"...so easy that person said like that, after i spend my time concentrating myself to finish that task...it's about 10am that time..why that person can't wait for that..hmmmm then i said to my team "tadi dia ni nak cepat sangat,lepas tu dah takpe pulak!"....my team members smile to me.."hhaha malek dah mula marah2,biasa la diorang ni malek nak cepat je..kitorang pun dah banyak kali kena mcm tu"..actually tak la marah2,cume tension skit dah,cume suruh tunggu kejap jer nak verify config kat switch tu..itu pun tak boleh tunggu..biasa la,that person tak tau kerja kami kat sini mcmana...ingat mcm sain buku check agaknya...hahahaha tghari tu going to carrefour to bought new phone.Sony Ericcson T630...budget nak beli T610 kat kl, dah bayar deposit about 10 ringgit,but suddenly tak jadi beli kat sane because of some reason...hampa...dont want to story here....boring2 beli kat sini,carrefour...hilang selera nak ambik T610, i take T630 setelah terpegun dengan cameranya...several friends in office use it...my bos use T610...eventhough i have new phone,my heart not happy...not happy for something...

Yesterday

Yesterday,all my troubles seemed so far away
Now it looks as though they're here to stay
Oh, I believe in yesterday.

Suddenly,There's a shadow hanging over me
I'm not half the man I used to be
Oh, yesterday came suddenly.

Why she had to go I don't know she wouldn't say.
I said something wrong, now I long for yesterday.

Yesterday, love was such an easy game to play.
Now I need a place to hide away.Oh, I believe in yesterday.
Why she had to go I don't know she wouldn't say.
I said something wrong, now I long for yesterday.

Yesterday, love was such an easy game to play.
Now I need a place to hide away.
Oh, I believe in yesterday.
Mm mm mm mm mm mm mm.

- from beatles

2004-10-27T10:39:00.000+08:00

Berbuka puasa di Sheraton Subang, vendor blanjer!

Smile all the ways....

2004-10-26T08:33:00.000+08:00

Good day! sepatutnya hari ni kene pegi Damansara training PacketShaper..last minute dapat message batal jumaat aritu..hmmm bile la pulak tarikh barunye..bagus jugak la tak jadi coz takde org nak handle call n apa2 task..dah 3 org dalam group pegi training yg tinggal 2 org...kak sherry cuti emergency plak arini,so tinggal william backup..mesti pening kepala..nasib baik jugak ler tak jadi training....walaupun tak jadi training hari nie,rasa mcm happy semacam....pagi2 datang kerja budak 2 org tu dah menyakat dah..mazura n asmat.."hai ceria semacam je yek!"dialog mazura dalam YM.."eh iyeker,mcm biase jer jerk!,hiihihihih!" ...hmmm mane taknya...ada la something happen yesterday...teman mimi shopping baju raya..dah la tinggal seorang2 kat umah sebab kene tinggal ngn parent balik kg..ari sabtu aritu ada exam,takleh balik kg..so kebetulan dia nak pegi kl cari baju raya,ikut la skali...kot2 bleh cari skali. daripada terperap kat rumah je..semalam pun berbuka kat kl, tak sempat nak berbuka kat sini...yela dah kuar petang,shopping takkan la kejap je..kalau dah sampai 4 5 beg kain tuuu..kite pun terbeli jugak la kain utk baju melayu,warna cream white..maybe utk raya haji,dah tak sempat utk raya nie...well lagi pun raya cume 2 hari jek, lepas tu dah kene keje balik...workaholic!..utk adik2 tu belikan diorang sampin 2 helai....abg dia nie tak berbaju raya pun takpe...sape lagi nak sayang kat adik2 kalau tak kite abang dia?..nak harapkan abang yg lain2 tu ntah la..it seem like mcm jadi abg sulung je..take care of family,since yg lain tu buat donno jer..hmm malas nak story banyak2 pasal nie..simpan jek dalam hati...as long can cheerful my mother dah cukup,coz she hoping on me...banyak sangat airmata yg dah mengalir melihat perangai anak2 yg tak tahu mengenang jasa........................................................
mmmm back on track, barula siap task tu petang tadi..but tak tunjuk lagi kat my bos..tomorrow la,itu pun tunggu dia mintak dulu..lagi pun tadi dia panggil nak discuss about projek yg baru dapat untuk deploy IPVPN utk UIA..interesting project, but have some problem...but problem tu bleh settle..with sorang lagi otai from backbone group,en. jamal, aku cume dgr je apa yg diorang bincangkan sambil mencelah sekali dua..bos suruh study dulu design yg nak di gunakan...MPLS pun aku dah tak ingat...kene bukak balik buku CCNP tu..arini kat CMS system tak banyak task yg dispawnkan kat kitorang dari CAA....so bleh la concentrate dengan task bos tu..dapat gak siap petang tu..hujan lagi kat luar sana,alhamdulillah masa nak balik tu dah berenti dah...oh ye besok berbuka kat sheraton hotel..hmm makan besar lagi...tapi arini berbuka masak sendiri kat umah..sorang je pun kat rumah...masak nasik,goreng telur,ikan bilis dengan lauk serunding daging........

"Sebab"

Aku bukan insan yg sempurna
Seperti banyak perkara yg diingini tidak ku lakukan
Tetapi daku terus belajar
Tidak pernah bermaksud untuk melakukan semua itu terhadapmu
Dan juga terpaksa ku katakannya sebelum daku pergi
Yang aku hanya ingin kau tahu

Aku menemui sebab untukku
Mengubah siapa sepatutnya ku jadi
Sebab untuk bermula sesuatu yg baru
Dan sebabnya adalah dirimu

Maafkan daku yang melukai dirimu
Sesuatu yang mesti kulalui setiap hari
Dan semua keperitan yg kuberikan kepadamu
Ku harap dapat tanggungi nya semua
Dan menjadi satu satunya orang yang mengubati tangisanmu
Itulah sebabnya ku ingin kau dengari

Aku menemui sebab untukku
Mengubah siapa sepatutnya ku jadi
Sebab untuk bermula sesuatu yg baru
Dan sebabnya adalah dirimu

Aku bukan insan yg sempurna
Tidak pernah bermaksud untuk melakukan semua itu terhadapmu
Dan juga terpaksa ku katakannya sebelum daku pergi
Yang aku hanya ingin kau tahu

Aku menemui sebab untukku
Mengubah siapa sepatutnya ku jadi
Sebab untuk bermula sesuatu yg baru
Dan sebabnya adalah dirimu

Aku menemui sebab untuk menerangkan
Sebahagian diriku yang kamu tidak tahu
Sebab untuk semua yang ku lakukan
Dan sebabnya adalah kamu

-olahan dari lirik sebenar Hoobastank - The Reason-

Network hairwired.....

2004-10-23T08:23:00.000+08:00

Early this morning my bos see the progress i made on the that task he given to me. Nasib baik dah buat separuh,not really separuh la..asalkan ada progress.. Tak sempat nak menghadap task tu coz still kene uruskan broadband activation n handle call from technician..hmmmm...jumaat, i bring along my "selipar silat",that sandal our ahli silat cekak slalu guna..sebab senang nak pegi semayang jumaat pakai selipar.dulu active la dalam silat ni masa diploma. .skang ni dah lama betul tinggal...ntah ingat ntah tidak..kak sherry tgk selipar yang cantik ini dia pun rasa nak pinjam sebab sandal dia putus..camne bleh putus tu pun aku tak tau.."orang kurus pun selipar boleh putus!" sakat aku..."amboii kemain lagi budak nie"kata kak sherry sambil tergelak2 ngn kak sabeq.. tetiap hari ada je benda yg aku nak sakat kan ...saja nak menghilangkan tension diorang ngn kerjanya..terutama skali kak sherry yg banyak workload tu..kesian lak aku tengok dia..semua org datang kat dia mintak itu mintak ini..sumer plak tu nak urgent...hmmmm..
hari ini punya main event,malam karang pukul 1200am nak pasang gigabit link to m40 juniper router..nak buat redundant link...not so clear on what my boss gonna do..just helping him and other colleague installing the device..so i plan to stay in office berbuka karang.malas nak balik lepas tu kene datang,coz kat luar tu cuaca tak brapa elok, still dark cloud..seronok jugak hujan2 ni,teringat masa kecik2 dulu suka mandi hujan kat rumah sambil cuci parit kat rumah sebab masuk tanah...
Ajak sinchan kluar cari kuih kat Stadium Shah Alam..lagi sejam setengah lagi nak berbuka...ramai jugak org time tu...banyak betul makanan sampai tak tau nak beli ape.."aku rasa kita sambar je ape2 yg patut lepas tu blah! nak round ni karang mau sampai berbuka kita tak beli2 lagi,"kata aku..tengok ini sedap, tengok tu sedap..abih tu mane nak beli...time lapar ni nafsu naik kepala..so aku beli la kurma sekotak,murtabak sekeping dgn nasi ayam..jadi la tu..ari jagung sebungkus..aku perati kat bazar situ..mcm2 org ada...yg berpuasa tapi serupa mcm tak puasa je..sebab ape?..yg pempuannya pakai ada yg pakai baju ketat2 sampai nampak pinggang.saje je nak pakai cenggitu..kurang pahala puasa aku arini...hish lain kali malas nak pegi lagi...yg lelaki tak kurang gak...hmmmm... lepas berbuka n solat,continue balik kerja yg bos bagi tu,sambil nak tunggu bos datang pukul 11..kat level 3 tu aku ngn shinchan je ade, yg lain sumer dah balik..shinchan tak balik sebab nak study remote access,esok exam..aku dah amik dulu dah....bos datang dalam kul 1115 dgn william,nak amik barang bawak turun ke datacenter..pasang kat sane...tak sabar2 aku nak tlg diorang pasang benda baru ni..
aku tolong ikat fiber yg nak sambung ke juniper router..tapi configuration vendor buat..takde la susah sangat nak deploy...cuma nak kene hati hati coz fiber ni tak bleh di bend,nanti signal tak lepas..lagi satu benda ni mahal..bile diorang bukan floor nak pasang cable tu,skali aku tengok berseliratnyee cable2 diorang..."mcm ni kene recabling balik nie,susun bagi kemas..kalau camni in the future lagi susah",aku bagitau bos.."hahaha memang kitaorang plan nak buat balik nie nanti",bos aku balas...at least aku ada bagi suggestion kat bos aku...memang sakit mata memandang...aku penah buat cabling dulu,dan tau cara yg kemas nak buat..sedap skit mata memandang...nak identify yg mana satu fault cable senang..
suasana dalam datacenter tu memang sejuk,tapi aku cool je tak pakai jaket sebb kat atas tadi panas sebb aircond besar dah ditutup..last last menggigil jugak sebab dah pukul 0100pg..budget nak deploy tu amik masa sampai 0400am plus nak buat testing,tapi cepat pulak siap sampai pukul 0200am..malas nak balik rumah,aku duduk kat datacenter tu ngn bob zaki yg shift malam aritu...nak abis kan task tadi..bukak balik laptop continue kerja...tapi kuar jap gi beli burger buat sahur dengan bob..
ingat boleh bertahan sampai pagi tak tidur,akhirnya tertewas jugak sebentar melepek sebelah laptop aku..adalah dalam sejam lepas chatting ngn kwn2 yg blajar kat UK sane..diorang baru pukul 830mlm mase tu..lepas subuh tu sambung lagi apa yang terdaya sambil surfing2...pukul 0830pg baru balik..nasib baikla ari sabtu pagi tu,kalau ari keje pengsan la gaya nya.......

Mean Life....

2004-10-21T16:23:00.000+08:00

Welcome again...after miss again blogging myself...the training on Huawei router was very interesting,although i've familiar about some of their configuration,almost same as Cisco punye...but the best part is presenter tu refresh balik my brain about routing protocol and some sort of network terms...bagus jugak training ni..some of us that already now bout Cisco router tu ok la,tapi kesian gak kat member yg tak penah pegang tu...sangap2 mendengar nyer...because diorang tak sangat involve dalam bab2 configuration ni...but worth to know...because we in telecommunication company...next week another training,cannot wait for that event...training ni for the whole day,tak mcm Huawei tu sesi petang jek....tgh training Huawei tu plak ada lak call dari vendor tempat customer.."En. Malek,gateway nak routekan LAN IP ke WAN kat Nortel Switch ni ape ye?.en Ahmad call..dalam hati aku "bile mase lak dia ni dapat no hp aku nie? tak lain tak bukan ade org bagi".vendor ni aku tolong mase nak upkan leased line utk park may..aritu dah tolong dia upkan 1st link,ok success...lame gak la aku guide dia mase kat tepon...tapi kali ni dia tepon time aku tgh training..plak dia call direct lline aku tkde,so member aku bagi no hp sebab dia nak sesangat aku tolong dia...yela aku yg handle benda ni..org lain pun bleh handle gak,cume dia tak tau..diam2 aku dah jadi mcm org penting kat sini..tapi aku seronok sebab dapat tolong org, and ada experience...
itu cerita semalam punye semalam...semalam punye citer plak,fuhh fully loaded with task...sebab ada Kak Sabeq tak datang...bukak je CMS tu dari atas sampai bawah SO dari customer menanti... Activation, cancellation, modification sumer ade..bab2 activation ni memang aku suke..sebab nak config router tu...so far tak berpeluang nak config untuk Leased Line punya job....lg mencabar..take some time skit..but utk broadband activation ni boleh dikatakan agak pandai..cume dapat complain dari techician salah bagi modem..ada 2 jenis modem untuk broadband,tgk kawasan..mane la kawan tau,manusia ni ada gak buat silap..banyak sangat zone,ada pakai modem ni,modem tu..bercelaru otak memikirkan.. task melambak2,aku tengok pun aaaaaa banyakknyeee!!..rilek2 buat satu2.lagipun takde nak urgent sangat,melainkan ada call dari Customer Service Assurance (CAA) wisma Time nak urgent punya activation..Bos punye permintaan pun tak settle lagi..listkan customer yg ada kat klpop3 to klpop6 punya router..senang nak tgk sape yg ada kat router tu..nak wat migration ke testing ke senang nk refer..ini for future project la..mmm best gak dapat involve sumer..Jumaat malam sabtu kene standby..midnight until sahur...nak testing new router..very the important thing..keje banyak,so semalam balik lambat pukul 930mlm..berbuka kat luar ngn Shinchan,kalo tak memang buka kat ofis la dengan sample kuih raya kak Sham..tempah 2 set Choc Ball ngn dia ..after negotiate ngn dia pasal harga..saje nak gurau2 ngn dia...kalao dia dapat customer macam kita ni memang pengsan la ...banyak sangat tanye n loyar buruknye...terpakse kak sham tahan demi utk melariskan kuih raya nya..hahahaahah..well budak malek ni memang suke buat lawak..sabo je la..diam diam ubi..stay back lambat pun dapat buat ape yg termampu...miss lagi semayang terawih..dah 2 kali dah..sebelum ni miss sebab rasa mcm nak demam je....banyak makan kot...tapi makan nasi ayam jer...balik je rumah terus boom tidor dengan bertuala..ingat nak mandi...set hp jam pukul 1200mlm nak bangun mandi,harammm...bangun esok terus miss sahur lak,walaupun sedar pukul 4000pg tu dgr org tendang bola..bola kat tv la sebab ade live...plan nak tengok tapi tak larat...lepas ni taknak miss lagi...

Ramadhan comes....

2004-10-19T10:08:00.000+08:00

I miss 3 days(maybe more!) to write...well, it takes time to write here,since i have a lot of works to do..In 3 days,so
many things happen,i don't know if i can remember all of them..Good news,not so good news...oh yea,Selamat berpuasa di bulan Ramadhan..at this time of writing,we have fasting for 5 days....don't talk about how many days to go to celebrate Hari Raya...The important thing how we managed our time to make more 'amal ibadah' to Allah,because every sedekah and good manners we do we get pahala yg berganda..And don't forget to solat Terawikh,because there's a lot of pahala on it...Back to the story,there are good and bad news...the good one is i feel comfortable working here...i will having a lot of training to improve my skills..next week will be Huawei router training, and after that training on configuring a PacketShaper...i have learned before this from my colleagues help...thanks kak sabeq and kak sherry for your valueable lesson .not so hard because since i have a knowledge on Cisco router..others, i managed to learn by myself...yesterday, with my boss and other colleagues, we deploy 2 Cisco 4500 for new project..before that in the meeting,my boss need me as a standy this upcoming friday for testing..12am to 6am..whoaaa!..cant hardly wait for that event....although i have to standby late night,this opportunity i cannot miss it.We depend on this project to expand our current network..so this test must be done successfully..Other good news i think, my boss need me to involve in network planning as well,as my current job is ip provisioning..i have to multi task my work start from this now..i do really like it,because from the first time i step my feet into this company until now,i don't have a clear view of their network..i want to study,but don't know where to start..so far now i have a knowledge about their network,how they operate and how to troubleshoot the problem..it's like im taking mimi's job, together collaburate with kak sherry..today is her first day at new place..still thinking of her........my brother called last night,telling me that i got an offer from government sector as Pegawai sistem Maklumat..good news? bad news?...that questions was playing around my mind..i used to live with my brother since my last semester of degree until last August..because my brother with his wife and 2 little cutie son and daughter has move to new house not so far from previous home..now i live in shah alam because it reduce my time and distance going to work..so he had checked that home if there is any mail left for him..unluckily he tell me that the mail was there a month ago...that mean maybe the offer were expired..Britney said "She so lucky,she the star!"..my version "i'm so unlucky, da da da"....but i'm happy with my current job...

Yesterday No More,Today is Here,Tomorrow is Unclear............

2004-10-13T13:22:00.000+08:00

I was so mute today,morning to evening....dunno why maybe it is about last night,after i made a brave decision about sumthing...sumthing that may affect my life....i opened up my notebook,and start to write what my heart wanna tell...i have to,because if i keep it in my heart,i'm afraid it was too late...at least it will relieve my heart...it's taking long time to think what i'm gonna tell her...and finally i finished it....i put it on the envelope...hope she can accept it........That morning,i came early to office, 7.55 am........nobody at office at that time,only i see 2 friends and other staff that came earlier than me...She not arrived yet..maybe 8.30am...sadly today is her last day here..Yesterday she not came,for some reason...Friends and I going to have a breakfast first...with 3 fellows including boss,not my boss but other group boss..He talk about next year budget for upcoming project...but he notice that "Big Guy" only approve very small amount of budget,maybe to cut down all unrelated expenses..I don't want to bother,that boss's jobs..She has arrived when we back..I just don't wanna to talk to her,pretending i'm busy...but suddenly there were a lot task to do,the urgent one after receiving email from other department..So i have to concentrate on work..i wanna talk to her actually,but i can't..today i heard only one song from my winamp.a song from Korean Movie:My Sassy Girl - I believe...again and again i play that song...the movie was good,eventhough i don't know what they said....i leave my Yahoo Messenger on,i guess she will buzz me for not talking talking her...and as i thought,she buzz me.."Wah betul betul busy yek!"...i leave it for a while to finish my task..then i reply to her.."ooo tak balas pun msg kite semalam yek!"...i sent her 2 sms yesterday,without reply..."lupe nak balas" she reply..."majuk ke?"......that words appear in the box...but i denied to her...actually i've planned going to cinema with her today,but she didn't reply my sms,i assume tak jadi...i remember the letter i wrote last night,still in my bag....slowly i took out and replace back the envelope i use with my company envelope....and seal it with company sticker too..suddenly there were fire drill..and all staff run out to outside..never knew there was an exercise on it..but our staff didn't act like there were a fire in the building..hahahah..including me..just relax going downstairs where other staff used to run to downstairs..That session so boring..but useful...After that my boss want me and my colleague to attend proposal briefing from vendor..proposal on new systems...my job is to ask the vendor what they offer to us in their proposed system..i'm not ready to ask that kind of question because didn't have any information about that..only 2 3 question..but it quite useful..i heard the budget for that proposed system will be reach RM 1.5M...very big figure... . i continue my work until lunch time comes....usually i use my lunch time to stay at office...just continue my work and checking emails.That's why my body so kurus,because tak kuat makan,takde selera or no mood...but today i change my mind.....i go out alone going to Giant hypermarket buy some juice...that i have in mind....then i walk alone around hypermarket,stop by in bookstore to search for pc magazine.....then i follow my step to a gift shop,to see something intereting to give for her...suddenly something has caught my eyes,something that really cute and suitable for her...maybe this is a good choice...i took it and ask for packanging to salesgirl...she wrap up my gift in a creative way....well, a gift and a letter from heart... i managed to ask for help from my friend to give her the gift...why not i give to her by my hand?...i don't want her to know that gift came from me...it's 5.30pm......time to go home but she still with the notebook,playing game with friends....my friend gave the gifts in front of me, including the letter in the plastic bag.....im afraid she will read that letter in front of me....i decided to pack my notebook and going back home...later that night, i receive a sms from her while im reciting Quran...im afraid to read it, so i leave it until i finish reciting....she really appreciate for that gift,i smile.... but she never give me the answer that i waiting for ....leaving me in a question...time will tell............................................

BRIAN McKNIGHT "My Kind Of Girl"

When I was younger never went to far
Held my feelings and never even wanted to start
so when i met you, i didnt know
what you were gonna do with my heart
When you talk (I cling on every word you say)
when you walk (Just like a breeze on a summer day)
when you smile (the sky turns from grey to blue, thats what you do)
And your the kind of girl I think of
and your the kind of girl I dream about
my heart is telling me that I need you in my world (in my world)
cause you my kind of lady (your my kind of girl)
When I'm not with you, where ever you are
baby I'm counting the moments till I'm back in your arms
all I want is to have you here with me
every night and every day, when you talk
(I cling on every word you say)
when you walk (Just like a breeze on a summer day)
when you smile (the sky turns from grey to blue, thats what you do)
And your the kind of girl i think of
and your the kind of girl i dream about
my heart is telling me that I need you in my world (in my world)
cause you my kind of lady (your my kind of girl)
Baby girl I need you here by my side
and if your there everything will be alright
cause this is the time for us, baby be mine
And your the kind of girl I think of
and your the kind of girl I dream about
my heart is telling me that I need you in my world (in my world)
cause you my kind of lady (your my kind of girl)

2004-10-13T08:36:00.000+08:00

With my cutie nephew...she now 3 years old..

Talking bout people that i love....

2004-10-12T05:10:00.000+08:00

Monday,first day of the week,some said Sunday...well, anyone can say first day of the week hari ape..because they have their perception. So sudah 3 hari (since friday) tak writing ape2...Nak tulis, tapi busy with my jobs.Baru tahu mcmana kerja kat sini,since my first day here...well, i do really like the job,hope to gain more knowledge and experience here and making new friends...A helpful friends,not a friend which with us when happy,and gone when we needed them..So far, im happy with this place, dapat kenal ramai kawan, eventhough i'm a shy person, not talking so much..Thank God i have good friends,and for all my friends out there,wherever you're,I love you all very much!! Thanks for being my good friends...Some of them dah fly keluar negara,to further study...i'm very appreciate of their achievement.
.... Well, other than friends, most person yg patut kita sayang is our father and mother,and especially mother...Because she have given birth to us....One of the friend of our Prophet has asked him,"Who should we love in this world?", and he says" Your mother"..Then the friend ask again 3 time, which Prophet repy with the same answer, and for the forth answer,he said"Your father"....Not to said that father is not important,but the person that we must care and love most is mother...So my friends out there,if you still have your mother,take care of herself,don't hurt her heart...and those who their mother has passed away, don't forget to berdoa akan kesejahteraannya....
"Mak, I always love you,terima kasih kerana membesarkan dan mendidik saya hingga menjadi org yg berguna,taat kepada ibubapa...never forget to pray for mak and ayah each time solat...I wanna be a good person, a person that can make others happy... Mak has teached me how to berdikari, berusaha dgn sendiri...honest,be good to people and jgn bercinta masa blajar..."Jangan nak bercinta,blajar pandai2 dulu!",the words that i remember when she send me to register at UiTM during diploma..Cannot forget her tears when i want to leave her to further study, after 17 years in her care. Well mak, i've prove myself to you, to become knowledgeable person,good person as you want me to be.....
Friends,mom...i've mention that....my father also,not so much to tell...but he's the 2nd after my mom, the person that gave an impact in my life...to be a good muslim....i miss someone to tell...because i still keep searching for it to give 'this love'.Got someone in mind, but too shy to tell her that i really like her...hoping for a chance to know her heart... she so nice...is she really now that?....time will tell that...

2004-10-11T18:00:00.000+08:00

Me at home

Somebody was born today 24 years ago....

2004-10-08T08:26:00.000+08:00

My work finished last night...but not satisfied with the result eventhough my friends told me that that was more that enough...3 days punye kerja,actually bukan full day...around 11pm after return from office till morning at 6 am...Tapi my friends cakap macam tak percaya,not expected the result like that...but kerja tu pun buat 2 org, dgn taiko (member serumah)...So mase nak menyerahkan pada diorang tu pun malam semalam mintak 2 hours lagi for finalizing unfinish coding..nak finding errors kot kot terkeluar mase diorang tgh present esok( harini)...Ye la , tak sedap hati la kalau nak serah kan benda yg tak complete tu dgn ade banyak errors.Yang mane bleh suruk tu kita suruk..At least tengok diorang punye "water face" yg ceria tu pun cukup lega, coz tak lagi risau bleh present atau tidak..."Macam tak percaya jek dapat siapkan sampai part ni dalam masa singkat nie",kata kata kak linda kat aku...."Kitaorang tak tau plak yang awak nie duduk area sini,dulu duduk rumah abg kat Kapar tu kan?"...Aku hanya mampu tersenyum jek...One of the team member tu budak kelas aku dulu masa degree...So anything kalau lecturer suruh assign group nak evaluate system ke, develope system ke, diorang akan carik budak budak yg boleh buat keje-keje camni untuk form group...itu la yg terjadi masa degree dulu..Tapi awal-awal lagi aku dah pakat ngan member2 kamcing form group,sumer lelaki yg jenis bleh diharap...because we don't want any sleepy member in the group...kalau nak amik org pun join pun seorang dua je..tu pun sebab simpati dia sebab group lain dah penuh..tapi kitaorang bergroup sampai 3 4 subject punye project...at least mcm our group consist 4 members, each semester tu mesti ada satu dua project yg bersama,untuk project lain tu kitaorang divide 2...kire mcm nak balance la...that why la bertahan until end of degree...itu cerita masa degree...memang terkenang sampai sekarang..So back to the the story, pagi tadi before diorang present,call skali lagi nak tanye function2 tertentu dalam system tu..mana tau nanti lecturer tanye takleh jawap, kantoi plak...Sesape yg baca blog ni mesti tertanya title mcm tak relate ngn nak ape yg di katakan...memang la,tgh intro panjang...okay, we continue....................
Hari ni aku dilahirkan, tapi 24 tahun lepas la...tak de yg prasan pun...bukan aku advertise pun... Hari ni takde stress sangat,lagipun keje aku ni takde stress pun...lagi suke ade la,cume tak sedap nak baca emel dari MD tu.. tentang cut cost and everything about company performance..hmmmm...ingat bleh la bersenang2 bile masuk sini...tapi kene struggle to bring back company performance..takpe la malas cakap pasal tu..terus hilang mood nanti...Hari ni 'dateline' bayar duit sewa rumah...Abang aku dah masukkan tadi dalam akaun tuan punye rumah..dan tugas aku seperti biasa call tuan rumah cakap "kak, duit dah saya masukkan tadi".....mungkin ada kelegaan di hati dia bile aku cakap camtu.... "oh duit sewa rumah sudah masuk,bleh la aku enjoy!"...rumah tu memang aku jaga betul2....mcm rumah sendiri...tiap2 minggu mencuci rumah adalah tugas harian aku,walaupun tugas ni bleh buat sesame ngn ahli rumah...bukan ape, aku sebenarnya malas nak cakap tiap tiap kali...cube kite pikir kalau ada rumah sendiri tak pernah berkemas sampai jadi rumah tikus, apa rasa nya?...tapi nasib baikla ahli rumah tak ramai, 6 orang jek..Ingat lagi masa degree duk umah sewa ngan budak2..memang dah tak serupa apa dah ngn rumah tu...dengan anai2 nya...dah tak terdaya nak mengemas,kalau kita sorang jer yg buat!...aku ni jenis tak suke rumah berselerak,memang sentiasa nak bersapu...biasa la dah didik dari kecil lagi..maklumla orang kampung ....cume skang ni dah bawak diri kat sini, masih lagi tak lupe asal usul..
Lupe lak sepatutnya orang Prudential tu datang arini bagi hadiah harijadi kat aku, itu pun sebab aku masuk insurans dia minggu sudah...semalam telefon konsultant aku(dah ade konsultan skang!) dia kata nak datang ari khamis(esok)...skali ngan bayar "wang perlindungan"...huh mcm gengster plak!...At least ada jugak orang nak bagi hadiah kat aku nie...ntah ape nak di baginya pun tak tau....ape ape hal nak kene draw money buat bayar monthly sok...So malam ni bleh la rilek skit tanpa kerja-kerja berat...boleh la layan movie yg aku download kat opis nie..nak download Smallville 4 episode 3 tak kluar lagi arini..mungkin esok kot...
huh lapar lapar nak cari nasik plak lepas nie...tghari tadi makan kat restoran "Penang ......" aku lupe...sebab tak kenyang makan...tak sedap sangat....kalau sedap, mee daging yg aku makan tadi tentu dah abis...ingat nak duk opis jek tadi,sambil menghabiskan kuih kasturi yg aku beli pagi tadi...beli sringgit tapi jadi makan tghari..diet giler aku nie...sebab tu badan mcm ni jek,..malas nak makan tghari..ni gara2 kedai kat petronas tu la...skali makan nasi yg lauk nya tak seberapa cashier cas aku RM5 ringgit...termenung jap mase nak bayar kat cashier tu.. "Eh,abang tak kenyang lagi ke?"...cashier tu tanye...dalam hati aku "Banyak la ko tak kenyang, makan stakat 2 3 suap jek dah kene 5 ringgit, apa kejadahnye!"...dialog tadi tu sebenarnya takde, saje je aku menambah2 nak sedapkan cerita blog nie...hahahaha...makan ngan Azmir@ Shinchan mase tu..."Mahal giler,aku makan tak seberapa dah kene RM5..malas aku nak makan sini lagi"...aku cakap kat shinchan...lain kali tak makan la aku kat situ....Makan kat gerai Nasi Lemak Ayam Madu sebelah dia tu lagi bagus...hahaha..well abih cerita untuk arini...Main point aku arini cume harijadi aku jek...yg lain tu skadar di pinggiran...staff pun ramai yg balik, nak cut cost kate kan!...

The New Beginning in my life............

2004-10-07T13:51:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum and hi all, for the 1st time ever i join to create my own blog... To share something that i want to with u all,...well for my 1st blog nothing much to say, although i have some point to say here. Actually, my birthday is so near...only 10 hours to go,but nothing suprising to celebrate...because my family never made any birthday party or what so ever it called. No tiup-tiup lilin like the orang putih did. Just 'bersyukur' to Allah for keep me breathing and give chances for me to search for the truth and improve my life.
okey that's my introduction,walaupun mcm bukan introduction jer for this newly born blogg. Ok, this morning and 2 days before was not like usual routine of my daily life. Some old-folks said "if you help somebody in trouble, one day if you have any trouble somebody will help you"..That the priceless words that i kept in mind until now...Our religion (muslim) also encourage us to help people who in trouble, as long tak bertentangan dengan agama. From that we can make more friends...oraits, back to the story why daily routine was so messy in these 2-3 days. I have to sacrifice my time helping my friends to finish their IT project.. Actually they got the assignment 2 weeks ago..That boy or girl i don't know whose they hire to do the project cannot finish it,which they only have 3 DAYS to present it ..Then as their last resort they called me,make me serba salah to help them because in 3 days, how much you can do ? Although their scope of the project is not big, when the programming part comes in, it take long time to finish it...because dah lame tak pegang coding!..For IT students they know la how difficult it is..then kalau nak buat bancian pun,girls only smart in reading,and guys better in technical part!..But not to say yang diri ni pandai sangat,...only tau la jugak to work with it.
So, as the result i came to office with mata yang sembab je...tapi bleh gak cover lagi..cume tak larat skit nak berjalan...Thanks to my officemate, Mimi (i mention your name here Mimi!),for her willingness amik pegi keje n balik skali sesame...I owe you kindness, so please tell me how can i pay you kindness.hihi..so sad to hear you will resign from current job...baru jek kite join this company,mimi got another good offer...but you have decided that. Maybe to find another new challenges...Cannot tumpang your's car anymore..hihihihi...well Mimi,good luck in your dream job...So ter'off track' lak tadi bercerita about my friend..about the project,my friends want to see how far i dah buat system tu pukul 10 ni..actually project tu buat sesame my housemate,that guy memang dah sebati dgn programming.. but as you all know,he also has a job to do,preparing his final exam.so takleh la kaco dia sangat..sampai stay up until morning..at last kita yg bertahan.dah tido..sian kat member tu..walaupun ade willingness nak tolong, tapi tak sampai hati nak susahkan dia..sampai terbeliak2 mate tahan tido...last night lagi best..reached home at 11pm i think,habis keje at 7pm then having a dinner with colleagues: Mimi,Anwaroi and "the Freaky Man" Bob..hahahah jgn marah bob!...dinner at Mama Chop Papa Grill, sound like that la..then shopping skit2 kat wholesale terminal subang tu..'terbeli' plak brg2 yg tak budget nak beli...my time is running out...if stay lame lagi nanti tak siap kang keje...tu yg sampai rumah dgn tak mandi,after solat isyak without changing my clothes terus 'on' notebook continue work..Sound crazy right??..but then passing that work to my friend jap sebb nak recharge power(tido la tu) about an hour...i think if i having another 2 or 3 night maybe my kepala will jamm...As i writing this blogg, jam menunjukkan pukul 5:51PM...how can i finish this day if i talk so many about last night punye cerita??..to be continued.....................